yume d-50

Dream Note: Tokyo Revengers

Entry Date:

October 15, 2022

I had a really cool dream. Have you ever dreamed that you are in an anime story? Especially the ones you just watched? After having a horrible day, I decided to watch Tokyo Revengers last night to forget these dark thoughts of mine. Before I explain to you what happened in my dream, let me tell you what happened to me on October 14th, 2022. As I was walking to my car from work, I saw vandalism on my car saying “Anime Is For Kids”. I’m glad that it was washable, and that I was able to erase it. How did these people find out? Well, my car is full of anime stuff. Decals, figures and some anime accessories and pillows inside the car. Before I was even able to get into the car, someone shouted “Hey Weeb!”. I turned around, then I got punched and kicked. It was this group of guys who I guess were bored and decided to torture me for being a weeb. I couldn’t do anything. I was scared. I don’t know any martial arts to fight them back. It was one versus four as well. I just let myself get beaten up since I couldn’t do anything. 

Luckily, there were some people who saw what was happening, so they were able to stop them and called the cops for me. Am I glad that people were able to help me out? Normally, I would say yes, but there was a bad feeling inside me. I couldn’t protect myself. Well, I always couldn’t protect and defend myself. From family and other people. I can’t get what I want. I can’t be me. I always have to act according to what people want to see me as. Being a musician and a weeb is the only thing I pushed to the public, but I’m not a pro singer or musician, and not everyone accepts weebs. They don’t understand what’s with anime and manga. They don't understand the feeling of the fans towards it. Should I just give up making music and being a weeb? No one appreciates me anyways. Well, at least that’s how I’ve been feeling. I mean, I don’t have any friends. People see me as weird and not talented enough to be known. During that day, I felt like I was on my verge.

I decided to watch Tokyo Revengers because I heard it was a really cool anime with a really cool story. Based on what I was feeling, I was thinking that this might help give me some kind of hope. Sometime after midnight I fell asleep. I was dreaming I was in the Tokyo Revengers anime. I met the Tokyo Manji Gang including Takemichi, Draken and Mikey. I was not part of the gang like Takemichi, and I saw myself as part of Takemichi’s circle of friends. It was a really cool experience because we all got beat up but we were still there for each other. I was offered by Mikey to join the gang, but I said I need to think about it first because I can’t even fight. He said, as long as I have a heart, that’s what matters. A heart that is willing to protect my comrades, people I love, and myself. Yeah “PROTECT”. That word is what’s stopping me because I don’t know how. Later on, there was a war happening between the Tokyo Manji Gang against Moebius. I saw Takemichi almost losing against Kiyomasa, but he wasn’t giving up. He doesn’t have fighting skills like me, but he was able to defeat him in whatever ways possible because of his willingness and heart to do it. While I was on my way home the next morning, I saw this wall saying “Never Give Up”. This gave me some kind of hope again. It made my day! As soon as I got home, I put on the coat that Mikey gave me. The coat of the Tokyo Manji Gang. It was so cool to look at myself with it on but my dream was cut short. There was a villain ninja who was trying to kill me. Who was that person? I can’t remember seeing that character in this anime. 

Dream Note:  Fire Force

Entry Date:

February 2023

It's been hard for me... I've been tied up from this situation. I can't do what I want. I have to stay still and ride in the waves of life. Life that I never asked. I started taking more of this pill called "Yume D-50". Everytime I take this pill, it lets me sleep and travel to the anime world. Last night, I was dreaming being tied up in a basement. I went up stairs and saw the ninja who killed me in my past dreams. This ninja glitched and turned into someone I've never seen. They look a like cult with black robe. I knew he wanted to kill me, so I ran away. Thankfully, I did. For the first time, I didn't wake up from being killed. If I keep surviving in the anime world, I can stay there longer. I can't let that kill me. I will choose when and how I wanna end my story. If I can't do what I want in real world, I want at least in the anime world.